How do you fall inlove with your partner again?

5 years of marriage, two kids and I seem to be falling out of love with my husband each passing day. Oh I have tried, tried everything to make everything okay in our marriage but I have a stubborn husband who never sees his wrong and always blames me. My husband is fine with keeping malice with me for a whole week and he wouldn’t budge. I have tried to do activities with him to bring back the spark in our marriage but he does not make himself available. He does not drink, go out to have fun, etc... all this I knew before marriage but things are just getting boring now.

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My husband emotionally abuse me all the time and sometimes I feel some hatred for him but I brush the feeling off. Oh and Have you seen a man that will buy a whole house for himself in another country without telling his wife first? That’s my husband. And when I tell him how I feel, he says that I nag too much.

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We have a 4 weeks old baby, my husband was too busy working that he did not come to the hospital with me for the birth of our child. My mum had to drive an hour drive to come be with me at the hospital.

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All through my stay in the hospital, he did not call me or text to see how I was. When I gave birth, my mum sent him a picture, he responded back with “thank God” and that was it. No call.

Since I have been home from the hospital, I have received no support with looking after the kids. I have barely even rested! I have 4 degree tear, I didn’t even know that existed. My lack of proper care for myself, made my stitches to burst. Thinking about everything is just making me cry.

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Yesterday I asked my husband for help with looking after the kids and he said “how do you expect me to spend all day at work and still look after the kids? What are you there for? I keep telling you that you do not act like a mother”. I do not act like a mother because I asked for help? I broke down and started crying... he did not even flinch.

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I really want to love my husband, but he is making it very hard for me right now. I don’t want to give up on my marriage. It’s always easy for me to tell myself that I will leave, but it’s been hard for me to.