Trigger warning: miscarriage

I never thought this would happen to me... I’ve never been through anything like this and it’s the worst thing. Ever since I found out I’ve just been so numb... I never thought I would have a miscarriage... I don’t even know how to process this.. I have to go for a D&C on Tuesday. 2 days before my birthday... I just want to cry all the time and it’s all I think about. I go through my day like everything is fine but I’m dying inside... we wanted another baby so bad... we tried for so long and when it finally happened we were so excited! I feel like my world is crashing around me. Someone please tell me this gets easier😭 I feel so broken💔