Y’all I am SAD

It’s getting really hard to just exist right now. I’m grieving loss, im tired. I hurt everywhere inside and out.

I’m trying really hard to socialize, so that I do not sink into an unending hole of self isolation and deep depression. I am on depression meds but I keep forgetting to call my doctor to ask if I should up the dose.

Boohoo I know. So here I am trying to show you things that make me happy, like this. Meet sweetie. Sweetie just showed up on our door step and my SO absolutely fell inlove with her. We thought she was a boy at first and named her “slick” because she looks like an orange cat that fell into black oil. but the vet said she’s a girl, and he was always calling her “sweet kitty” before so we just changed her name to sweetie. Fun fact: 99.9% of calico cats are female.

Yeah he’s a tough guy until his BABY comes along. Look at this.

Ridiculous lol. But cute.

I am trying so hard to hold onto these things.

God depression is such a monster.