Just a vent....

Last night, my boyfriend fell asleep pretty fast. I know he was sleeping because he was snoring, loudly. I was on my phone scrolling through Facebook. About 30 minutes went by and all of a sudden my boyfriend jumps up, rolls me over, spreads my legs and gets on top. I thought, wow, tonight is going to be good. It’s been 3 weeks since we’ve had sex but about 2 months since I’ve orgasmed. But I quickly realized, he didn’t care if I had an orgasm or not. I was dry when he went in (that hurts), he stroked 2 times and was done. He went to the bathroom and I just sat there like wtf just happened. He’s always been a 5 second man, but this was by far the worst. He does masterbate and I never deny him sex. I’ve tried initiating and it’s still the same thing. I’ve talked to him about things. I’ve asked him why doesn’t he care if I get off too. His reply was “because you take too long”. So he’s never cared if I orgasm. That hurt like hell to hear. But why would last night be any different?! Why was last night such a disappointment?! I don’t know. I thought maybe just because he woke up from a dead sleep and was a little rough (I like that sometimes) that it would be good. But I thought so wrong. When he come out of the bathroom, he told me he was going to smoke. I literally broke down when he walked out the room. I feel so stupid for crying over something like that, but I couldn’t hold it back. He doesn’t know I broke down. I’m not asking for advice or anything. I just needed to vent. I feel bad for even venting about it because he knows he doesn’t last. He’ll say “well that sucks” when he finishes. I’m so lost for words. I want to bring it up again, calmly and nicely of course, but I don’t want him to get upset.