Venting.

I lost my little angel yesterday. I've had lots of family and support from loved ones and that helps get my mind off things but I don't know how I will ever move on. I've been in this hospital a few days now and all I hear is babies crying. Today I was leaving the chapel after saying my final goodbyes to my little one and getting her baptized. I see a family getting off of the elevator with a stroller (probably taking the baby home for the first time) the grandma screamed out loud and said "this is my new grandson" I wish that I couldn't say I was happy for them but it broke my heart. I don't know how were expected to ever recover from losses like this. If I didn't have a wonderful husband like I do I seriously don't know what i would do with myself.  Everyone just says I'm sorry this happen but you'll have another one day. No I won't we tried and tried for more then 5 years and we thought we had our time. Getting our hopes up just to get our heart broken all over again! I'm mad at the world and at myself for wanting this so bad and making a innocent little angel suffer all because I wanted a baby. We are done trying . I don't know what to do.