Weird to masturbate when I live with my boyfriend ?

Idk is it weird? Like he knows I do it, I don’t intentionally hide it but I don’t necessarily tell him every time lol.

We have different sex drives. I’ve never orgasmed in my life. I only started masturbating a year ago, at 23. We now live together and I want to continue exploring my body..without him. Like it’s nice when we get hot and heavy but I never come close to coming like I do when I’m by myself. I told him I bought a vibrator and sometimes use it when he’s gone, but we both work from home so he’s barely ever gone. Sometimes if he’s gone for like an hour I’ll use it because I FINALLY have some alone time lol and I get embarrassed by it..but he asked me the other day if I tried the vibrator and I was like yeah I do when you’re not here 😬 he’s totally cool with it but idk I feel weird.

He gets offended when i tell him how sexually frustrated I am because I never orgasm. He says he feels like shit for not being able to please me but it’s not his fault and that makes me feel bad:/ so idk I know he’d tell me if he was offended by me jerking off any time he’s out of the house for ten minutes lol (since quarantine started We’ve been around each other literally 24/7 working from home..we even go grocery shopping together, literally everything). But idk I still feel bad..how do I not feel guilty about it?🥴😞