39+3. 4th baby. So sore so emotional and so fed up.

My boys have never been born this early usually always with a few days to spare or late but midwife told me she seen me going early so of course it’s been in my head since.

Thought last night was the night. But it stopped. So much pressure so much back pain hemorrides that are seriously in so much pain with and I just want to sleep.

Have three boys remote learning at home and I have no patience for anyone or anything.

Currently on the ball just praying it’s today. Going to a birthing center so also scared I go to quick and midwife doesn’t make it on time if it’s during the night. As previous births have got quicker and quicker. Last one was 2 hours.

Just wanted to vent here 😂😂😂😂