I've always had anxiety with small bouts of depression prior to baby. I dealt with it for as long as I can remember. So when I heard about PPD/anxiety I was worried I'd get it after baby was born.

And of course, a couple weeks after our son was born last March, it creeped in. And it hit me hard. A lot of it stemmed from being a NEW mom, it was all so unknown to me and I had no idea what I was doing which triggered my PPD/ANXIETY.

Some days were extremely painful, I remember crying myself to sleep most nights and dreading waking up. Thankfully, my son had no clue what mama was going through, I kept my demeanor and was a happy mama to him. But on the inside, I was suffering really bad.

18 months later and I can honestly say, I am in such a better place mentally. I still struggle with anxiety but I think it's something that will stick around being a mama now, I just naturally worry all the time so the anxiety is probably here to stay. However, my depression is basically gone and it feels SO damn good. There are some days where I still just want to lay in bed and not get up but that's just because I'm tired and could use the extra rest.

Sorry for the long post, I just wanted to celebrate feeling GOOD for once. I think a lot of it has to do with our son's age now, I'm loving this age where it feels like I can genuinely communicate with him and our relationship is so special. I absolutely love being him mama and watching him grow.

Any other Mama's struggle with PPD/anxiety? You are not alone and I truly believe it does get better.