Why bother..

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t so affectionate. It always comes back to bite me. Like today-went to a gender reveal party and bf stayed home. Texted him and if he wanted me to bring him back a plate and no response. Came home with food and no response. Tried talking him and he was too busy playing on his console. Tried to be affectionate (kiss his cheek, asked him if he missed me) and he seemed annoyed so I did laundry. He said he’d get off and waited an hour or so and nothing.

He changed the game he was playing (to a game where I watch him play) and I thought finally some time together. He set his controller and started kissing and scratching my dog. I thought it was cute and I took a video of him and my dog and he saw when I was saving it. He told me to delete it because he was in his boxers and I told him I wasn’t going to post it on social media and plus you could only see waist and up.

He told he didn’t care to delete it or he’d my dog out the room. I thought he was joking so I saved it to my phone and he started grabbing my dogs bed. I jokingly told him no because I thought we were playing around like we usually do and he grabbed my phone out of my hands and tried to delete it. I thought we were still playing so I grabbed him and was trying to pull him close to me. He then made a face like he was getting mad and deleted the video. Then he started scrolling through my photos/videos and I told him to give me my phone back (at which point I was getting upset because I knew he was going to start deleting other videos which he did). He wouldn’t give me my phone back and I told him that I was serious and to stop. He kept deleting things and I grabbed his shirt and pulled him towards me since he was only like a foot or two away from me (I was laying on the bed). He then got all upset at me because I grabbed his shirt and he put his headset on and changed the game and is now not talking to me.

I was honestly just wanting to come home and relax with him... not argue. He didn’t wanna talk, or kiss/hug, or want me taking cute off videos of him so I’m just annoyed at myself. Why do I care. I should’ve just went to bed...

**For the people saying that I should respect him and not take pictures/videos- we’ve been dating for 6.5 years, we live together, and he’s always let me take pictures and videos of him. He knows that I take some and he has never minded. My point being was him being irritated for whatever reason and just blowing me off. I went to the gender reveal alone and he had 3 hours to play. I get home and he seemed annoyed I was bothering him while he was playing Fallout (a game you can pause). I gave him his space thinking maybe he’d get out of the funk. When he showed affection to my dog I thought he was in a good mood and took a video of him. I wouldn’t just invade his privacy if he didn’t like it, but again, he does not care. Took a video of him playing with my family’s dog like 3 days ago.