Anger/sadness

Ok I hold a lot in because my family often makes fun of people for being emotional or laughs at them. They are the type of people to point out there biggest insecurity and throw it in there face. I grew up like that ever since I was young and I hold a lot in so how do I deal with it? Yes I do journal , half of the time my emotions are ignored by like my mom and my sister for some reason they hate sensitivity so I feel like it’s wired in my brain to feel ashamed of when I’m angry or when I’m sad I really hate it here

(My mother doesn’t believe in therapy and. Help )