Why am I sexually attracted to killers?!

Okay I have been watching Hannible and Im finding myself very turned on by him and hes not even really attractive. This is not the first time I have had am attraction to a fictional killer. In fact, I have lost count. Pretty much any time someone is that calm and terrifying Im Immediately turned on. Its never the frantic ones like in criminal minds though. Just the ones like Hannible. What the hell is wrong with me?! Im married. I shouldnt have these feelings for anyone let alone someone as concerning as a killer XD. Please dont attack me I already feel weird about it.

EDIT: thank you guys for mostly making me feel a little less alone with these feelings XD. And to the people that recommend counseling, girl im there. I just got lots of other stuff to work on too 😂. And of course if i saw a real killer id run the oposite direction. I understand that most of my feelings are because of the way tv romanticizes these characters. If they were true to real life they wouldnt be nearly as likeable. And to the woman who said to do some role play with the hubby, i would if i felt less embarassed. But i cant even call him daddy without being drunk 🤣.