Had a miscarriage in August. Bled the 6th - 20th (confirmed on the 13th). This was my first baby and my boyfriends 3rd. He has 2 kids from his past. I’m 23 and completely devastated especially after being excited over having my first baby and him being the father, him on the other hand just doesn’t seem to care. When the doctor told me we had lost the baby I called him crying asking him if he was still at work or if he could pick me up so I didn’t have to drive in the state I was in and he asked why I was crying and I told him we had lost the baby and he sat on the line quietly then eventually just said ok. Every time I try to talk to him about it he just ignores me. He just completely dismisses me when I try to bring it up or when he notices I’m sad or in a depressed mood and he asks what’s wrong and I tell him he just rolls his eyes. When he finds me crying all alone and hugs me and asks what happened he withdraws as soon as he finds out what’s wrong. During the miscarriage I was cramping so bad and told him one day I might have to call out of work for the day (I’m in the medical field and being up running around for 12 hours seemed impossible) he asked why I would and didn’t seem very happy so I went to save us an argument. He has walked in on me screaming “I just want my baby back” and he walks out and shuts the door behind him and refuses to ever talk about it. How do I cope all alone? I don’t want to remind him in case it is -by a very slim chance- hurting him deep down and him not showing it but sometimes I would like to be reminded I’m not alone. I was all alone during the miscarriage and I’m all alone now. I tell him I’m tired of being all alone and he says “you are not alone, you know I’m always here with you” but then it is this way.

Sorry if this sounds like I’m needy but I just don’t know how I’m supposed to keep getting through this all alone 😔 My depression has gotten extremely bad after the miscarriage and nobody seems to understand. I’m at the point of just walking out on everyone. I feel i would be better off alone and by myself rather than feeling alone but around people.