Pregnant after a miscarriage

I had a miscarriage on August 5th of this year. It was a shock as I have 4 healthy children, I guess I never imaged it would happen to me, but it did. Anyway we waited a cycle and started trying again. Just found out I’m pregnant. I’m super happy of course but I’m also terrified. The miscarriage was really hard physically and even more so emotionally. It was traumatic and I don’t know how to get over it and embrace this pregnancy even though it’s very much wanted. Anyone else have experience with this and how did you deal with these conflicting feelings? It’s faint but there, I’m only 9 dpo. I hope this baby is healthy and sticks. Fingers crossed this is my rainbow baby 🌈