Irrational fear

TW-Loss

My last pregnancy I was pregnant with twins, to say my early pregnancy symptoms were STRONG and hit me like a ton of bricks is an understatement. Sadly we lost them...and ever since then I have this irrational fear the next time I wont know I'm pregnant. Like I wont have the same feeling as before. Which is then leading me to worry I wont be able to bond with any future babies I get pregnant with. I feel like I'm ruined in a way. That maybe I would of bonded great before but now the fear has me worried I wont be able to in the future. Like I'll feel no connection.

I dont know why I'm putting any of this out there. But I guess I could use some healing words of advice on how to feel like myself again and not get so scared to ever get pregnant again.