I am the worst human ever

My cat got dewormed at the vet and the poop following the deworming was something out of nightmares. I don’t want to talk about it. But it’s been a while and I found more live worms in her poop.. like a lot of freaking worms so I went and got the pill from the vet to finish the job. She was so full of worms I’m not sure how she was even alive. She’s a rescue and her only real problem was worms and god wow. It was a problem.

I had to wrap her up in a thick large blanket, hold her as tight as I can and have my boyfriend pry her mouth open and then I shoved it down her throat and forced her to swallow it. It was not pleasant. And then I let her go from the blanket and she just stared at me. She hates me now and I know it.

This is the second treatment. I am hoping this kicks them permanently if not then shes going right back to the vet. The worms bother me more than they bother her.