Hey ladies,

I haven’t been on glow in foreverrrrr! I wanted to share my story as well as see if anyone can relate?

So a little over a year ago my daughters were born via emergency csection . I had developed preeclampsia and it was evolving rapidly . My body started shutting down so that’s when the drs decided it’s time . In the OR I was given anesthesia . This specific part makes me hate my birth story and gets me crying even a year later . My girls were born prematurely @ 33 wks . During the recovery process , I had lost a lot of blood . As well as I had a lot of blood clots , where the nurses had to physically go inside me to grab everything out or as much as possible . I was laying in a pool of blood (until they switched my sheets while I’m still on the hospital bed) after 3 large bags of blood and recovering off magnesium . I was able to see my daughters two days after their birth .

I hate telling my story I don’t like when people ask anything about the birth , this includes how far apart are the girls . With this being said I crave another pregnancy . Specifically for a single pregnancy and so I could not have a c section . I’m not embarrassed or ashamed of the c section . I’m traumatized . Does anyone else feel this way? Where they want to have another pregnancy not only for another child but to experience v birth ?