Struggling to poop😬

Idk why but the past few weeks I’ve literally been dreading going to the bathroom every time I have to go #2. It hurts so bad and when I wipe I’m almost always bleeding.

I’ve tried taking stool softeners but I’m never consistent because I’m always forgetting😭 is anyone else dealing with this or just me? I’ve also tried feeling down there and it feels normal, like I don’t have hemorrhoids or anything..