Did he even really care?

Courtney

I just got out of a relationship with someone I thought would go a very long way or we’d even possibly get married one day. We talked for a month about what we wanted in a relationship and eventually started dating. EVERYTHING was fine up until the day before he called it. He treated me well and I made sure I took care of him, treated him well and tried to make him happy. When he’d leave clothes at my apt, I’d wash/dry/fold them and bring them to him since he lives on campus at the uni we both attend. I made him breakfast once and even took care of him when he was drunk the night of and day after. Wednesday, the 9th of Sept., we went out to dinner and everything was fine. Thursday he was really short with me and Friday is the day he called it. He agreed to a break bc he said he needed time and I told him that was fine bc i wanted him to be 100% and happy. He told me he’d be back and he loved me and cared about me so much. A few days go by and I don’t hear from him at all which is fine bc he said he needed time. I’m still upset and text my friend who is dating his roommate and I just told her if he’s playing games he needs to stop and if he wants to end it he needs to tell me bc he just agreed to a break. I find out from her later that he told his roommate that he told me he was done when he didn’t tell me that at all. I sent him a text and said “can we talk bc I just want closure.” He calls and I asked him why he didn’t just tell me in the first place and he said he was just confused and didn’t know how to tell me and we talked a little more and that was it. I found out a week later that he was on Tinder and Bumble already about a week after we had split and that was a setback for me bc I thought I meant more to him than that.

Did he even really care or was I just a temporary hookup for him until he decided he was done with me? I tried my best to take care of him and make him happy but after finding out he was on Tinder and Bumble a week after we broke up makes me feel like I meant nothing to him. Maybe he didn’t know what he wanted? Will he realize one day that he lost something good? Idk what to even say right now. I just feel like I meant nothing to him.