I’m gonna rant a little about my feelings so don’t mind reading so much.

My cousin and I were really close when we were younger. I’m 22 now and she’s 23. I would always go visit her in Vegas and stay with my aunt and we would all have so much fun. I would beg my mom to leave me there for summer break for I can spend time with my cousin because she was like a sister to me. One day a big conflict happened between her mom and my mom and my cousins mom (my aunt) didn’t want us having communication at all or with my other cousins (her siblings) it was confusing and heart breaking because we have no idea what the issue was and till this date we don’t know why my aunt just flipped out like that and it’s been about 7 years now. But over the years I still would talk to my cousin and then I would visit her for a few days when she moved out of her moms house. But then I noticed how we weren’t that close like how we used to be and I would text her and she would wait hours or the next day to reply. Well fast forward now she is pregnant and I’m very happy for her but she didn’t tell me she was pregnant till like 4 months. It was heartbreaking to hear from someone else that she was pregnant then her telling me after us being so close to each other. About 30 minutes ago I saw my other cousin who lives here post that she’s in Vegas and went to her baby shower and they don’t even talk that much. So I’m very heartbroken how she could’ve at least invited me to go and I could’ve worked around my work schedule to go and be with her. I know the whole COVID situation going on but it’s like I would’ve gotten tested before going to see her and all but It just sucks that she could’ve told me you know. I text her a couple of times during the week and she couldn’t mention to me about it like I see that shady after all we been through and being so close you’re gonna do that like it really sucks because I have no friends or cousins I could talk to and be close with like all I have is my boyfriend but I want to have a girl friend I could talk to about and share girl things. Needless to say I’m heart broken over it 🥺