Am i crazy... Posting anon cause I’m embarrassed

My boyfriend and I have a 2 month old. I’ve been in a physically abusive marriage in the past (Felony assault by strangulation, I was in a medically induced coma after the event) and I do suffer from ptsd. He knows all this. I don’t know if it’s even relevant but I thought I’d include it in case you guys think this is a ptsd-based overreaction (don’t be afraid to say)

My childhood friend was visiting from out of town. I stressed to my boyfriend to make a good impression. We had been together 2yrs before having a child and the relationship was good, with him catching an attitude based off of work stress from time to time, but nothing abusive thank god. Nevertheless, my family and close friends live in Texas and we are in Vermont, so he hasn’t really met many of them... especially with covid going on now.

He did great for the first 2 days of my friend’s visit, but tonight he came home from work and instantly started attacking me. It all started when I turned off our home security camera by accident (I flipped the breakers to try and fix my dish washer and I guess the camera logged off). He called me on his way home, IRATE about that. Telling me “if you had random guys over while I was out, I’ll find out.” Mind you, Ive never even come close to cheating. I don’t even have male friends.

So he walks in the door, and I had dinner cooked. Sausage and rice. Tonight was especially hard (our son has colic) because my friend and I took him for his 2 month shots this morning, and I think he was cranky as a result. Anyway, the first thing he said, despite me saying “hi baby I missed you today” was “this dinner looks like shit.” I instantly broke down and started crying. I truly haven’t slept since our son was born, and he cannot say the same as the baby and I spend the night on the living room couch to keep him from waking up (my idea not his). Not once have I asked him to help me at night with the son. He doesn’t even like helping during the day. The pediatrician told me that dad should spend 2 hrs/day with the baby to give me a break... and I’m lucky if I get 15 minutes without him yelling at me to “hurry up.”

Anyways, I told him “I made you this before baby and you liked it.” He comes back with taking a quick bite out or the pan and saying “this tastes like absolute shit.” I cried in the bathroom, and he never came and checked on me. Him and my friend ate dinner together and now she’s telling me that he even took 2 helpings. All while I was bawling my eyes out. I even had to take my son into the bathroom with me because I heard him crying. My boyfriend didn’t say a word.

I finally collected myself and came back out to the dining room, sat down, and he got up, slammed his plate into the sink, gave me a kiss, and went to bed. I turned my head when he tried to kiss me and he Said “wow fuck you too.”

My friend flies back to tx tomorrow and I’m trying to leave with her, with my son. What do you guys think?