If you had HG and were induced!!!

So I’m 28 weeks. I’ve had pretty bad HG my whole pregnancy. I’ve therapy 2-3 times a week and still puking, I’m on 3 pills as well. Honestly being this sick this long is super catching up to me. Like at first I would just cry occasionally. But now I’m so stressed and frustrated and done, I’m balling everyday I’m depressed for sure and I’m starting to resent my baby. I’ve been doing affirmations and telling myself that it’s not her fault and she’s being effected to by my body hating being pregnant and hormones etc. but I’m just done. I’m hoping the latest to be induced New Years when I’m 39 weeks. But at this point I want to bed my dr to let me go earlier if she’s ready. Like her health first but honestly even at 38 weeks I’d be so relieved. Sadly I know I probably don’t have control. I tried to commit suicide at 15 and while I’m not as serious with my actions I find the thought coming into my head and I hate it! I want this to be a happy time in my life but pregnancy has been so traumatic I can’t wait til she’s born. 😭😖 did anyone else experience this? I don’t know anyone that’s had it as bad as I have in person. So I’d love to hear. I haven’t held food down in 2 days and when I puke I pee myself cause I have no control. I’m so done 😭