Feeling so heartbroken and down 💔

So the miscarriage went on through last night so haven’t slept then but only was able to sleep 4 hours this morning. The pain was horrific and the bleeding was heavy but no clots this time so I don’t feel it has passed through yet.

Just feeling so down. It happening exactly the same as before. Had 2 miscarriages when I was in my early 20s with my first ever boyfriend. This time I’m 27 and I’m happily settled with my partner so felt it was the right time to try again. I tried to not focus on my past too much as all pregnancies should be different and not compared. I felt so positive about this one and being in a good situation with life.

I knew in my body that something wasn’t right. All my symptoms had stopped and didn’t quite feel right, you know your body. Now looking at myself I feel so normal, bloating has completely gone so back to my flat stomach. Not feeling like eating much as just feel permanently sick. Drinking water and taking pain killers. Don’t even want to do anything but just be.

Seeing my partner trying to stay strong for me has been hard. He’s hurt clearly as he doesn’t know if he wants us to try again if it’s going to cause me so much pain 😢 just feel so broken. I know people have gone through this and am going to a miscarriage Clinic to get tests done and see how they can help just horrible how such a challenge this is when it should be something that people can naturally do but obviously not us all. I just think it’s so unfair. People wish to have many kids, a nice big family. I just would love only 1 child, that would be enough for me if possible. Don’t think I’m asking for much 😔