I told him I cheated !!

I told my husband I cheated I told him that I had to find in the street what I didn’t have anymore at home and that the guy I was with had a big dick and made me cum or then ten times and ate me out . My husband changed like almost a year ago we dated for four years and married 2 years almost. He just went to sleep and didn’t say anything he just says I’m crazy like that’s his only excuse and yes I told him that we should talk to a sexologist and he said no I told him to eat me out he was like in a few minutes just puts it in and finished I wanted to have sex in handcuffs he said he didn’t like that I’ve worn lingerie and perfume he hasn’t noticed. I’ve sometimes tried getting on top of him to seduce him it work few times but not all the time. He last only a second sometimes how will I be satisfied with only a second of sex.?!😐😔😢 I’ve cried so much over this broke down over this it’s sad when we first started dating we did it sometimes 3 times a day or once everyday until it all went changing he started barely kissing me barely telling me he loved me😔