4 months postpartum- down below not the same..

Let me start off by saying I've had back to back pregnancies in may 2019 and june 2020. I do know my body has accomplished alot the past couple years and I had episiotomy in may but in june it was uncomplicated vaginal birth. Since then, i had a leep surgery done also almost 4 weeks ago due to abnormal cells on my cervix. I've tried doing kegels alot but idk if they are actually helping. Anyways my vag still seems wider to me, my husband hasnt said anything about it during sex and im honestly too embarrassed to even ask him, it would crush me if it wasnt the same and unsure if could handle the answer. Anyways, anyone know of anything else beside kegels that could help me feel halfway normal again? 😔 Any advice is appreciated!