Virtual baby shower - rant

FTM, my sister was awesome and put together a zoom baby shower so that we can have a social distance chance to celebrate baby. I’m so grateful, but yesterday and today I’ve been feeling sad because I’m the last of my friends to have babies, and I’ve been to so many showers and was looking forward to my turn, getting to see everyone and have them ooh and ah over the belly. I know, not something that can really be resolved, and I’m not looking for a solution. I’m trying to remind myself to be glad of what I DO have, but it’s hard sometimes.

And I can’t help but feel angry that I helped to make sure that they got these well planned, beautiful parties, with all of their friends and family in attendance, and now that it’s my turn I’ll be sitting all by my self in an empty room that if I want any fun decorations I have to do it myself. Self pity is definitely rearing its ugly head this week 🥴

Sorry for the rant, and thanks for listening if you made it through ❤️😔