Awkward

So I’m into CNC, anything rough and I didn’t know this was an official thing but I like when my husband has sex with me when I’m sleeping. Both when I wake up to it & when he just tells me all about it the next day. (We have talked and given boundaries) but sometimes I feel SO awkward telling my husband what I like. We’ve been together for 7 years. There’s a lot we do but also so much we haven’t that I think we would both realllly enjoy. Also how awkward is it saying something like “no... harder. More pain” 😂😂 I’m trying though lol we’ve just recently started being more open with what we like sexually. We always thought the other liked what we were doing so we didn’t change. Turns out we were both just trying to please the other which was very boring. I feel like once you’re being pleased the way you really want you’re more excited to please your partner