Sigh, I don’t know what to do. I want so badly to have a baby boy. For myself, for my husband.

I’ve had two girls, both c-sections.

With my last, the doctor told me after I had her, that he’d suggest not trying for another because my scar tissue is so bad, there’s a chance I could just bleed out & die, if I do.

I almost had to have a blood transfusion with my last one because of the amount of blood I lost.

Now it’s 5 years later & my heart hurts so badly. I cry over it often & 2020 also seems to be the year, everyone I know has gotten pregnant with & birthed boys.

I want to try for a boy so badly that I’m almost willing to risk it. My biggest fear is death & leaving my babies though.

I’m so torn & i’m so sad.

Do you know anyone who was told not to have another but did, & was fine, or any vbacs that were had successfully?