Disabled and pregnant

Over the last 6 months I’ve lost the ability to walk without pain and a mobility aid. All my ligaments are too loose so I frequently dislocate or partially dislocate my hips, shoulders, and ankles. It’s been incredibly hard to cope with being increasingly more disabled. On to the second part.

My partner and I have been together about a year and a half. He is my forever person and my biggest supporter.

Last night we got a positive pregnancy test. I want to have a child with him so badly but we have come to the conclusion that my body would not be able to handle it. I can’t walk now without pain and I can’t imagine how bad it would be if I kept the pregnancy. We are both very very sad. Does anyone know how to cope with watching your body deteriorate or having to terminate an otherwise wanted pregnancy?

Please only support here.

Edit 1: I’m in therapy already (highly recommend it), and my doctor has warned me in the past that it would be extremely difficult on my body. You can bet that I’ll be double checking everything before any permanent decisions are made but it is incredibly unlikely in my case that I would be okay. Thank you all for the kind words.

Edit 2 (answering a question): hard is in permanent damage