Maybe I need to vent?

We’ve been ttc since January of this year with nothing. Not even a day late period. I mean I guess that’s better than getting my hopes up time and time again but I feel like a failure. Like my body is useless. My first son was literally conceived while I was religiously taking birth control and now that I’m off and have been for a while? Nothing. My husband said he doesn’t even want to try any more because he thinks I’m just too fat to get pregnant and that I may have secondary infertility.. Gee thanks bud. 😒 Ugh I don’t even know how to express how I feel right now. I guess I do need to lay off and get myself in order before we try for any more children..

Thanks for listening to my venting..