Anal Sex.. My First Time

I had anal sex for the first time today.

It kinda hurt. But not for too long.

The weird thing was that I started crying. Not happy tears or whatever but lowkey scared tears. I don’t know why I was crying, it also wasn’t just like a few tears I was all out sobbing.

I trust my boyfriend and I know I love him and that he loves me so why was I crying?

My boyfriend was super sweet and concerned for me, he immediately asked if I was okay, and tried to do whatever he could to make me feel better.

We talked afterwards I wanted assure him that I didn’t blame him or anything. I also knew he was feeling bad about me crying and I felt bad about that.. he kept saying it was okay to cry and that he was there for me.

Maybe this happened cause I was overwhelmed? Maybe it i have suppressed trauma?? Maybe there’s something wrong with me?? Maybe my hormones are making me crazy?? Idk.

Thoughts?