i’m 19 and 20 weeks pregnant. i kind of forgot that i was still a teen, but i still am. i live in an apartment with my boyfriend and a dog and cat for almost 2 years now, i have a kind of stable life but am so scared to have this baby. the baby stage is fine for me but it’s going to be a full person. a person that’s going to be going to school, making friends, learning, and obviously so much more. that just feels like so much for me to comprehend.

i haven’t been doing much with friends for almost a year before i became pregnant but i feel a little sad that when i have this baby i wouldnt have the option to at least do what i want. i love her already but this is so hard for me to accept some days, it feels unbelievable. i don’t talk to my family about how i feel because they expect me to be mature like an adult, but i really don’t feel like one.

this is probably a lot to read but i needed to let it all out.