Hysterectomy

I may be leaving you lovely ladies soon. I have a follow up with my new gyn in two weeks for another ultrasound to check on my fibroids. He was actually able to feel a very large fibroid that’s pressing on my bladder and my uterus so assuming they’ve done nothing but increased in size. He feels that I will not become pregnant without assistance of IVF like the doctor that did my hsg stated and that the risks may be too great of being able to have a healthy pregnancy. So....it’s starting to look like I’ll need a hysterectomy in order to relieve my pain from these fibroids. I was so praying for a better answer and at least to be hopeful of having at least one more child but it’s starting to seem like that just won’t happen. He did say I could speak with a specialist about IVF and my risks with age and everything I’ve had going on but doesn’t feel like it’ll be too promising for me. I guess I’ll know the answer in a few weeks but my heart hurts. I’ve been ttc for sooooo long and was hoping and praying daily and now my hopes of being able to carry another child are shattered. And seeing pregnant women (even older than me) everywhere I go even at work is killing me. Makes me question what I’ve ever done to deserve this in life knowing I shouldn’t question cause it’s out of my hands. My mind is just all over the place. Guess I just had to vent to get it off my chest...

Thanks for listening