I’ve lost my shit

My husband tells me I can’t function in normal society because I’m off my fucking rocker. Perhaps I’m totally overwhelmed with life, postpartum depression, and overwokered. He goes to work full time and I pretty much stay home. He takes care of most of the bills I handle cable/internet and electric. I also do real estate but have been super slacking lately. I’m taking care of a house hold, a 10 month old, an 8 yr old and trying to take care of myself but miserably failing. My husband does not lift a FINGER when it comes to the baby, my 8 yr old OR this house. I take care of everyone and everything in this house. And I’m just ducking done. I don’t even want to live any more or be a mom anymore. Or a wife for that matter. I’m just so over this shit hole of life . What the fuck is going on anymore. I hate this year 2020 can suck a fat dick