Advice please🥺

Two days ago I found out I was 31 weeks 6 days which would make me 32 weeks 1 day today. I’m so beyond stressed, I’m considering adoption but at the same time I’m not sure if I could put myself in that situation.

I am doing repeat c section and that’s a fear of mine as well, my last one was traumatic as I felt them cutting and they had to knock me out so I don’t even want to risk being awake with this one. My bp was high last pregnancy (induced at 37 weeks) and my bp has been very high the last few days as well so I have maybe 5-8 weeks left depending on if I go in at 37 weeks. Baby is completely healthy even after drinking, smoking, tubing, doing all kinds of activities pregnant women aren’t supposed to do so at the same time I’m thinking maybe this is god blessing me.

I’m just so confused, in shock, trying to process everything and if I could have some encouraging words or advice that would be great.

Also.. I found out I’m having another boy and I have everything I need due to my son only being 16 months but ugh I’m torn with everything.😩