Scared to test 😔

Dominique

So i am currently 17days late for AF and i had light spotting around the time of AFs due date and i have just had a little pink when wiping. Ive felt really ill all day but each time i have tested in the past its been a bfn, and I just don’t want to be let down again. My SO really wants me to test but im nervous especially to tell him again its a negative and he gets so excited 😢