My fiancé and I finally had the house to ourselves and got my mom to watch our daughter.

The night started off really good- we were drinking, dancing, laughing and then it got really bad. We have always had a pretty up and down relationship and he can be very controlling and emotionally abusive. I thought he was changing.. I really did. I wanted my family to work SO bad...

Well last night he got mad at me for being too drunk to have sex. He started screaming at me and calling me a bitch and telling me I am a fake ass person, that I’m a tiny insignificant person, that monkeys could do what I do for work, and that I don’t care about anyone but myself (including our child who I primarily care for). I tried to lock myself in our bedroom and he wouldn’t leave me alone. He broke the door to come in and he just yelled at me all night. The house we live in, we bought together but it is technically in his name. He kept telling me to get out of HIS house. I get we were drinking, but it was so ugly 😔

I just woke up and he was laying next to me and I’m sick to my stomach. I just don’t know what to do. I love this man, my daughter loves him but I am tired of being treated this way. I am putting together a savings and I think I can get enough saved to leave around February. I have no where else to go and I am not going to a shelter with my daughter...

My heart is so broken. It’s almost Christmas and I feel like my entire world is falling apart. Please give me advice or words of encouragement because I can’t tell anyone about this right now and I just need to feel not so alone..