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So I’m 9 weeks and today is my surgical abortion at 2. I’m not feeling good about it but the baby father is insisting that it is. We just broke up and now he has a gf. I asked if he can come see me because I’m sad about it but he said he couldn’t. I really don’t care if the father is here for me or not. But I’m second guessing and it’s hurting me 😓 I just feel like a bad mom if my son grows up with a father figure. Sorry for venting ladies