Choosing to not use my genetics

My wife and I had our first born by doing reciprocal ivf (also called co-ivf). We used my wife’s genetics because she is unable to carry for health reasons and I carried the baby to term. The process was so beautiful because we both felt so connected to the baby.

We are now planning baby #2 and our original plan was to do ivf again but with my genetics. As we get closer and closer I can’t help but feel guilty and regretful. We have seven perfect PGS tested AA embryos from my wife in the freezer.

Am I crazy for not wanting to do a retrieval and not have my own genetic child? I want my wife to feel included and for both of us to have that special bond and for it to feel like we made this baby together (She is so supporting of whatever decision I choose)?

Not many people understand what I’m going through because they haven’t done reciprocal ivf or aren’t a non bio parent. In my mind genetics means nothing to me, so why go through the retrieval process and inject myself with hormones for something that doesn’t really matter to me, especially when we have seven embryos still 🤷🏻‍♀️ I guess I’m just ranting at this point, but is there anyone out there who has had similar feelings?