I know I'm not alone in this. Corona has taken so much from so many. And compared to others I don't really have much to complain. We still have our flat and my husband still has his job.

But I feel sooo lonely!

I haven't seen my family for almost a year now. They life in a different country and I last saw them in the first week of January 2020. Before covid.

God knows when I'll see them again.

I haven't seen my in laws in two months either. Last time before the one month lockdown in the UK (or is that three month ago now?)

I have seen my best friend once since march. We write everyday, but I just need some human contact! I have a history of depression and anxiety and I can feel this depressive side of me creeping I again. I'm fighting it as much as I can. But I was so looking forward to seeing my in-laws again on Christmas. Now BoJo said no can do. 😩

London has been put on tier 4 (he even especially newly invented it just so he could keep more people home). So no visitations anymore.

They all obviously have their own issues going on. But I've been doing my best to reach out to them every now and then. They answer but always really short. And they never initiate conversations. I'm just at a loss! Having my family be in a different country (it's been 6 years but it's still difficult) and now my in-laws being so distant. Now my husband is also being weird and I'm just home with the kids all day feeling lonely. I want all of this to end and I want to see my family!!!