Postpartum

I had my baby back Nov6 this is my 4th baby. I have a 5yr old 2yr old 1yr old and my newborn. My husband is the most amazing guy. Great father house giver best husband and we’ve always been so sexually active and we’ve been wanting to get back to the norm but I just feel like I’m not attractive anymore. He loves me and reminds me always and isn’t different in any way. I guess it’s all me. I’ve went from a 145 to 208 and I can’t seem to go back down. I’m just yo yoing I’ll go down then back up and since my pregnancy been so close together I can’t go down. And I don’t feel good about it. I have no one to talk to about it and if I tell him he is so supportive that I feel bad for feeling bad.