Help sleeping advice

My baby is two weeks old and has been home from the nicu for 3 days. I haven’t slept in 3 days. I’m sitting on the couch in the living room balling holding her so my husband can get any ounce of rest since he works at 5am and had been helping me for 4 hours try to get her to rest. So she sleeps all day. Like it’s so hard to wake her and get her to eat and then at night from about 8pm-6am she won’t sleep. She either screams until she’s held and then she just stares at me. It’s only been 3 days and I can’t stand her 😭 I hate writing that but I need to be real. I’m so frustrated. I feel like she hates me and nothing I do works. I feel like an awful mom. I don’t want to hurt her but I feel I can’t always hold her all night long while she screams. I want to scream back. I haven’t and I just put her down and try to ignore it and take a minute to breathe. Once the night is over I don’t want to see her, hold her. I’m scared I could hurt her if I let myself get too frustrated. I need help 😭😭😭