I don't know anymore do you ever feel like your parenting skills aren't up to par

I don't know how first time parents get the hang of this 0-1 baby 1-3 toddler 3-5 preschooler these stages children keep growing and it's like where's the Manuel for these ages like six years old what should I know

It's like I want to be that patient mom that has all this energy. When I was a virgin and a teenager I had all this strength energy after I had birth surgery the doctors had malpractice I had an infection they changed through different antibiotics kidney bladder infection in the gutter almost wiped out all healthy gut they made a wrong laceration colon bowel intestine leaky gut so many issues in CT Scan they even found out that I had scoliosis no one ever knew now my back is in pain I had urinary inconsistency and irritable bowel syndrome.

Its like going from being 18 to 22 is not much a difference being a mother at twenty three is young but I felt old

I don't know how to have that energy

During my pregnancy I took parenting classes, I've read up on books but at this next milestones from five years and above I ask myself what does a child need.

I ask myself how do people with no degree in childhood education raise children with no experience!

I know wealthy give their children tutors, governesses, nanny's with childhood education degree those people are the most involved. But how do the parents parent

Please share with me books resources