So, my fiance and I have been together for almost 9 years. We have two beautiful girls (4 month old and almost 2 yr old). Before him, I had never dated a white man let alone been in a serious relationship. He is my first serious relationship and he just so happen to be white. I'm black. I've only experienced black men, but I've been approached by different races including white. The ones I've previously met only wanted to see what it's like to "be with a black woman" 😵 so I passed on all of them and thought how crazy is that? But, he was different. He showed interest in me.

Fast forward to a relationship with him, I've had to prove that I only want him and he is enough. He is extremely jealous, possessive and will get angry if he even thinks someone is looking at me or if he thinks I'm looking at a "black man". He thinks that all I want because that's all I've experienced before him. I wish I never told him that. He recently told me about 2 weeks ago that he wishes he was black with dreads 😳 I said, "what?!" He had been drinking but was serious about it. Recently I had a bed delivered from a freight company amazon sent and when the man called to confirm that he was on the way, he answered my phone and went ballistic!! All because the man was black and he thought I knew the man and had been cheating on him. Which is a usual accusation from him smh. He said f#ck me and the delivery man, I can have that black man, etc. But I had never seen or talked to this man a day in my life. The delivery man laughed and said this is crazy. I was so embarrassed. He has other issues that make me question if I even want to be with him because nothing seems to change. This is exhausting.

Anyone ever dealt with this?