Does anyone feel guilty when they say no to sex ?

I just told my bf I wasn’t in the mood to sext and he was cool w it. But I feel bad and I feel like a bad gf. I’m not good at sex or sexting at all and he could do much better in the department and we both know it. I just feel like fuvking shit.

When I don’t feel like sex usually I just suck it up and do it but then it hurts cuz I’m not into it so again I just keep sucking it up. But if I’m not into it then I’m not enthusiastic and don’t even try to learn or participate.

My sex drive is just really low lately, possibly because of new BC. Idk. And his is so high. I just want to stop feeling guilty.

I wish I had my confidence back. I use to be so cool with myself. I had my shit figure tf out but 2020 was reallll bad w boys and I just lost it all.