Let me do a tiny back story. My Boyfriend and I have been together almost 4 years. The 1st 2 was long distance. I am 100% open with him. Before I moved across the states to be with him I told him I wanted to have a baby. I'm getting older so my time for kids is now or never. Less than a year left at this point. That was the deal breaker for me. Now here it is almost 2 years later and we almost never have sex. We had a better sex life when we were long distance. We get in a fight about it often. Most recent a few nights ago. Yes he is having some performing issues. In out argument the other day he brought up he had pills. This is the 1st time ever I heard about it. He swears he told me. I'm sorry if you did I would be drugging you or making you take them. So we work through this argument. Have sex the next day cause thats what happens. We fight and the next day or that day we have sex then nothing. I tell him if you are serious about having kids these are my most fertile days. No joke the 1st day he was hunting all day. He comes home and I bring it up again. Then I get nothing. So I get upset because he blew what I said off. So he gets mad at me for crying. Promises me the next day. Then tells me he's going hunting that day too. Gets home the next day and absolutely nothing. Then I get excuses that he's tired, his tummy hurts oh and the kicker, the pills don't always work. Like what? You told me in the argument we had a few days ago that they do and now your changing your story. He gets mad at me cause I'm balling my eyes out because I'm extremely hurt because he lied to me. Don't Promise shit then come up with excuses. Then he Promises today. Like really? Today don't mean shit cause my fertile days are pretty much over. You knew this. I seriously feel like he is just saying it to me. He swears hes not but how the hell can I believe him when all I get is excuses. Yes I understand he's having issues and yes I support him and do everything I can for him. Whatever he needs. But don't keep promising something to me then breaking the promise and expect me to be ok with it. I love him but im tired of being lied to.

He swears to me he wants kids till he's blue in the face but I can't be sure I believe him because actions speak louder than words. His actions are the opposite.

**Update**

Even though we talked before we sat down and talked some more. He is actually trying more. I bought some pink stork vitamins for me and him and he's actually taking them. As well as has a Dr's appointment on Monday. (Multiple reasons but that included) making progress

**2nd Update**

I am officially pregnant! Tested positive clearly today. Be both are happy. Thank you everyone for your support!