I know this is just repetitive at this point

I really just need someone to talk to. I’m working on getting insurance. Or I might just pay. Since I moved with my mom. I can try. Idk.

But

I’m not over breaking up with my ex, I feel so bad, he’s blaming me 100% for everything. He said he isn’t but at the same time he is, he’s contradicting himself and I’m just annoyed at this point. He’s not taking half the responsibility for our breakup. It takes two. He was verbally abusive, he hit me (according to him I hit him first that’s why he slapped me) that’s not what happened and we’ve fought more than 3 times in this relationship, he lied from the beginning and he doesn’t think that that can change someone views on you, I had minimal trust for him in this relationship, I lost respect when he put his hands on me, that was in September and that day he wanted to commit suicide because I wanted to break up with him for putting his hands on me. It’s too much and I just don’t want to continue to feel bad.