Larger girl wanting to look beautiful on her big day 😞

So I'm a bigger girl. Thick. Uncomfortable in my skin.

For reference I live in American Eagle jeans. Wearing the curvy or flex fit size 14. I usually hide in men's hoodies from American Eagle in men's large.

I'm a pintrest lover. And I dont know if I prefer a more romantic and rustic wedding dress or a clean and minimalist dress. I want to look hot AF. I wanna wow my future husband. I want a low back, sexy, maybe a high slit?

But all of the sexy beautiful dresses are modeled on such gorgeous tiny women. I wish I was a size 4 and could wear anything i wanted without an issue. And then I look at the plus sized models in wedding dresses and they are like beautiful fit plus size women like Ashley Graham. I dont look like that!!

Anyways. Can I see some real regular brides? And I don't want to sound mean, but if you're kinda like my size (around the 12 range to 18 range because my weight does fluctuate) show me your gorgeous self in your wedding dress please!!!

I need real untouched raw inspirational beauty here. I need women like me.