sooooo my boyfriend and i have been dating just over a year. a few months in to our relationship i started feeling this sense of “who’s on his mind”.

it’s been bothering me, leaving me confused, wondering if i’m the right one.

he is ALWAYS sleepy around me. has never posted about me on social media. likes peoples posts but only occasionally likes mine.

now, something that has bugged me was that in his tagged photos on instagram there were always four or five photos tagged from this one girl. they’ve gone away and come back twice but now gone again. i never knew the girls name and couldn’t figure it out.

every time i’d see the photos i’d think of the name Cheyanne. so yesterday i asked “do you know a Cheyanne?”

he said from what grade. i said “idk, college”

never said he knew a girl with that name. BUT once i said, “i’ll pray about it” he mentioned the girl from college.

so of course i asked “so you DO know someone by that name”

he never really said yes or no but said “ill text her”

now mind you, times before where i’ve told him to reach out to FRIENDS, or family, it takes him forever, so why was he so rushed to message her?

i asked why they stopped talking and he said it’s cause him and I started dating.

it took nearly two hours but he finally said “we had feelings for each other, told each other on the day of graduation and then he left.”

she loves on the other side of the country, but i don’t think he’s over her. and he wants to go back to school, which is close to her (kinda) and i feel like he just wants to be closer to her.

is he over her? am i just over reacting?

i feel so in love but i feel he isn’t 🥺

and just a few weeks ago he asked if he was holding me back from anything, and i asked him the same and he never actually gave me an answer.