I love my boyfriend with everything in me and I want to be with him so badly but he loves in different way and sometimes it comes across like he doesn’t give a shit about me?

For example: it’s my dream to get married and move to Arizona and raise a family, but I have to wait for us to graduate. We have about 2 more years. I don’t see why we couldn’t get married before graduating and just stay here to finish school and then move to Arizona. Tonight he told me he refuses to move to AZ “just because i think it’s pretty.” I’ve been in love with AZ for so long and pretty much have life there planned out. He says he won’t go far from his family (which he doesnt even spend time with and constantly complains about — so I know that’s a bullshit reason).

I don’t think I can stand to stay in this area or even this state. I’ve been waiting 21 years to get away from here and start fresh with just my husband and kids.

I cried so hard and am still crying because I didn’t want him to leave my house tonight. He basically just threw salt in my wounds and kicked me while I was down saying “you could be with me more but you always go home after school instead of coming to my house when you know I have that dog.” “That dog” he’s talking about is the puppy I got him for Christmas. He acts like it’s a burden to leave his puppy and come to my house instead. I have 2 dogs and 2 cats but I don’t act like I have to be with them all the time.

I also have classes and 2 JOBS. He took the semester off and isn’t working so he literally just sits at his house all day. It just makes me so mad that I love him and pour my heart and soul into him and our relationship and he does the bare minimum. Sometimes he can’t even do that.

Not to mention I pay for everything we do. Every meal, all the gas money I spend traveling from my house, school, work, and his house (4 different cities). I’m glad to pay for some things, especially since he doesn’t currently have a job but like damn.

I do everything and he never seems appreciative. He doesn’t even seem to think about how his words and actions affect me but he claims to love me. It’s so tiring but what am I supposed to do? It’s not like I could stop loving him. I wouldn’t want to even if I could. I just wish he didn’t make things so hard.