He is different person

Do I want this? I’m looking for advice or opinion. Please don’t be mean but I’m all ears for feedback. I’m in a commuted relationship to this man. We have known each other for years and are engaged to be married. This summer will make two years engaged. Since being together we have both grown and changed and evolved, however him more so than me. I had my “self-exploration” years in college and even took sometime to date myself, purposefully not getting into a relationship to get to know myself better. I’m not perfect but there has been growth. My SO has..well changed. Looking back now I see it’s like I’ve been dating a teen or college student. He has changed directions and focus and it’s like he didn’t even know who he was. I fell for one man but I can’t see that man anymore. He is so far removed from where he was when we started. He is so consumed in making money, watching news, having power. He used to care about helping and caring for others. He was so down to earth. Now he lives as if it’s his world and everyone else is living in it. Often times he isn’t pleasant. I’m always willing to work on us but lately he is so engulfed in having power that he hasn’t poured much of himself into this relationship. At this point I really need/want emotional support and he can’t/won’t provide that. I can’t understand throwing the whole relationship and engagement in the trash because of this. I’m not sure if this is a phase of him finding himself or if this IS him now. I want to married to the guy I met 12 years ago and the guy I fell for 10 years ago. The one I committed myself to 5 years ago. But where is he?

I can hardy talk to him anymore. He treats my family and even his own family different now. It’s like mentally he’s not even here. Everything said he just turns to capitalism, making money, knowing more than others so that he can’t be messed over, have power and control over who he shares knowledge with. It is impacting us finically, spiritually, mentally. It’s just not cool.

He says when he makes [x amount of money] he will have time for God, time for me, time for us, and that he will go to counseling and be open to LIVING LIFE outside of his computer screen. But at this point, I honestly feel like, one day he will look up from his screen...and I won’t be there.